Jingjuin ×静君×

Finally, I add a gadgets.
is really hard to me.
I mean about blogger.
Everything that I dunno I still can find out through the website.
But I dunno why, about this,
although i found many web page,
but it still cant help me.
Omg.

Actually I wanna post a new blog to here for many days ago,
but I dunno why, why I am so busy.
But I still can surf the web, sms, and all that lame things.
But not post a new blog.

Nowadays really busy than before,
because, now I must do my homework or study while i surfing web, or playing online games.
My exam failing one by one.
Oh gosh,
I really dunno how i gonna face my UEC exam in the end of the year.

Today,
Physics and English exam.
Its look like so easy,
but when I start to do it,
is just ok to me but not easy as I think.

Tomorrow,
Chinese and Calculus,
I dunno how to do,
Maybe I will fail it.
and now,
I gonna sleep because very sleepy.
I woke up at 3a.m. to study my physics yesterday,
and now so tired.



死咯，
那天听到one fm 的电台，
那时不懂做么突然间讲精神分裂，
然后症状有四个，
1. 突然间很想（或直接）大声尖叫。
2. 很暴力。
3. 突然会不爽人。
4. 突然不喜欢做工作或学习的东西。（就堕落啦.)
我四个都中完了，
还不死？！

（这篇blog严重影响本人的声誉。。T.T）

唉，
这几天尤其是今天，
真的是有够不爽的。
neh， 那个嘉倩咯，痴线的。
每天讲埋那些没有意义的烂鬼话。
我只不过换去伟杰隔壁坐几节而已嘛，
尽然写大大个字 “ 死人头，又去kou仔！！！”
还连在我的水壶上面，
害我喝水时差点笑到喷水，
然后伟杰就在那边笑。
唉。。
然后咧。。
我昨天肚子很痛很痛，
然后我就跟嘉倩讲，
我肚子痛到很厉害，
我就跟她讲我去生baby了，
拜拜。
结果今天早上，
他就一直讲谁是baby的爸爸。
炸到。。
然后他就讲奕睿是野男人。
因为他是在他们之中不被承认的“爱人”。
炸到咧。。

我觉得他很无辜咯。。

这次写华文了，呵呵。。
其实真的很懒惰打华文字。
因为我觉得打英文字比较快咧。。
而且没有那么麻烦。
anyway，还是用华文来写。

不懂从何时开始，
我变得多愁善感，
变得不体谅人。
应该是高二开始吧，
高二那年起，
我已经不是本来的我了。
多愁善感也变成是我的性格了。

真的很想哭咧TT,
为了很多事情。
最近的考试，
基本上是从今年的考试开始，
我就得不到我满意的成绩。
不懂为何，
明明就没有尽力，
还是要达到想要的成绩。
很讨厌我自己。
比起往年，
我哪里可能在意成绩这回事，
理他零分也好，
最多也只是讲yer，零分咧，这样而已。
我懂我没有尽力没有资格讲话，
但最起码，我也有要努力过啦，
也有付出过咧。

最近很忙，
但又很不想理会那些功课，
更加不想听课。
因为我真的忍受不住，
老师在台上讲的话，
我一句都听不懂。
所以干脆不听了。

大牛老师讲的很对，
今年的课程并不是可以自己了解的。
完全不可以！！
以前，
上课不听课，
考试前一天，
自己都还可以了解那些数学啊，化学，物理之类的科目，
但现在咧。。。
我什么都不会了。
是我变笨了吗？？

真的很想放弃了，
这几次评测前，
都很想放弃的，
若不是因为答应了别人不可以放弃，
我早就放弃了。
而且，
我觉得若我真的放弃，
有人会不爽我。

昨天放学的时候，
已经压抑了很久的烂心情，
结果，
建升惹到我，
被我骂了，
骂他的时候尽然还携带埋粗口。
对不起，我不想的。
可是骂完他的那一刻开始，
我真的有够力想哭。
若不是忍着泪水，
眼泪早就流下来了，
很勉强的笑了一下，
继续用很快的速度收拾书包。
都不懂那么快干嘛。

这几个月的泪水，
都因为强忍下没留下，
但是，
我还可以忍几次呢？
真的很想痛哭一场，
但想到时间地点都不对，
怎么哭？
泪水死也要忍在眼眶里。

Actually,
I dunno why my blog can't post any comments,
But now finally solve it.
All of you can post ur comments,
if you want.


I wanna post many blogs these days,
but I really very busy for doing nothing
and also very lazy to touch the computer.
Because the stupid connection can't connected.
I already control myself not to break the stupid modem.^^


I really wanna post something about my doggie,
But the doggie because got skin sensitive,
already cut all its "hair".
So now just like a little piggy.
But the video is 3gp file,
and then i cant upload it to here.

Haiz,
many homework i still never done yet,
all the homework can become a mountain already,
so tired when see all those homework.


Besides this,
I still have many thing frustrated me,
I dunno why why they are so frustrated ,
but really.

My mood damn bad today.
think about something long time ago,
like few years or few months ago.
and think a lot of all those rubbish things.

After that,
my examination.
I cant imagine how do i pass this year.
i failed many exam.
The mood not everybody know.
I am not care about marks or exam before.
But now, i thought i not care, and i also pretend to not care.
But i CARE.

I dont know why i'll become like this.
and also dont know why what can i do?
Now i already no mood to do anything,
include blogging.

Who can tell me how i gonna take part in UEC?
I wonder to give up that,
But i cant.
Because 1st i already paid all the money as registration fees and other fees.
2nd, my SPM i dont think i can get any A's.

Oh Shit!
My leg damn pain.
Actually not pain la, is just feels sore.
Really.

I think i really long time no exercise,
but that day, the Saturday, I did.( I think, or maybe just imagine, LOL)
All of us, i means many friends, that day went to the china town and Imbi and Bukit Bintang and also Jusco for the raising money for the school.
That was nice~~ Maybe i gained many experience that day.
But can you imagine that me walking walking walking and walking from morning till night?
That day my leg damn tired.
But totally not sore.

But now, My leg feels sore.
Erm, Maybe is my leg muscles.
Ok, fine, whatever.
The main things is why my leg feel sore?
That just because a P.E. lessons.
I know, we were late,
But the teacher punished us 掌上压，
But i really dunno how to do that.
after some arguing,
the teacher say i can go to 拉耳朵,
but is double punishment.
Oh, bull shit lor...
60 times only actually,
but dunno why very tired this time.

When i was in the primary school,
everyday i also must do this punishment at least 200 times.

this is because i cant finish my homework everyday so get the punishment.
But i can afford it,
But now,
60 times, i cant.
OMG.

OK well,
i really start blog in blogger instead of in live.(old blog)
Actually i wanna change it long time ago.
But i don't know why i din change it.
Now, Finally.

After chinese new year,
i start the new blog( i means here)
is it that good? i don't know.
I don't think this is a good year.
Because i really don't know what the teacher talking about in school.
So i only can give up.
Erm, Maybe i will start to study all over again to improve myself
and not only wanna give up this and that.

Tomorrow,
chemistry exam.
i thought that was only page 1.
but today, i only realize that i'm wrong.
The exam range is page 1 to page 9.
for some people is just very easy or very few.
But for me, NOT.
Chemistry is totally hard to me.
So,
i dunno what to do.
because i really dunno what the teacher talking about,
and the main reason is i not interest in chemistry anymore.